Core Lies

August 10, 2009 § Leave a comment

How do I forgive somebody who constantly tears me down? The theme of this year’s summer camp was forgiveness, and while I learned an enormous amount about the freedom that comes from releasing a grudge, it is still incredibly difficult to put into practice.

“If you don’t find an apartment soon, you might as well quit school this semester,” mother said spitefully at dinner.

How can I tell her that her exaggerations are hurtful to me? I have been hearing them all my life.

“If you keep getting B’s on your report card, you’re going to end up going to community college.”
“If you don’t find an internship by next summer, you’re going to end up jobless and homeless with nobody to take care of you.”

All those words planted this thought in my mind: you will never be good enough for me. And I believe it, constantly living in fear of her disparaging remarks. I can’t wait to get out of this house sometimes.

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