December 22, 2009 § 2 Comments
There is very little that I detest more than awkwardness. It’s the reason I won’t watch The Office and refuse to give in to the endeavors of my awkward-loving friends to convert me. Recently, something came up unexpectedly, though there’s no reason for me to be surprised about it.
Although things with my ex are definitely in the past now, the situation is still uncomfortable because we have SO many mutual friends. Not much has changed between his relationships with my closest friends, which I suppose is a good thing [for everybody but me]. This sometimes means that he still acts like a clingy child to my BFF, but I suppose some things never change.
One thing he’s always enjoyed is having people over at his house. Because I returned home from school later than everybody else this past week, they’ve all spent time there already. CZ was there with some other friends just 20 minutes ago when I called her, and an awkward tension immediately mounted when she mentioned it.
I really hate this. It’s not like I’m dying for an invitation to his house, but it’s not like I’d rather die than go there. These people are my friends too! Why is it that we can’t play together? Do they feel like my ex and I have to be mutually exclusive? I know that he’d probably be the last person to call me, but are my own friends really that uncomfortable doing so as well when he is there? Should I talk to him about this? I don’t know how to figure this out. Thank God I’m only home for two weeks…